{"id":2745,"date":"2022-05-05T10:34:50","date_gmt":"2022-05-05T14:34:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/diaryofanhonestmom.com\/?p=2745"},"modified":"2023-11-15T17:03:50","modified_gmt":"2023-11-15T21:03:50","slug":"learning-i-needed-to-break-the-cycle-of-generational-trauma-and-face-how-my-childhood-shaped-me-as-a-person-and-a-parent","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/diaryofanhonestmom.com\/blog\/learning-i-needed-to-break-the-cycle-of-generational-trauma-and-face-how-my-childhood-shaped-me-as-a-person-and-a-parent\/","title":{"rendered":"Learning I Needed to Break The Cycle of Generational Trauma and Face How My Childhood Shaped Me as a Person and A Parent"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t
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Realizing How Childhood Trauma Affects Adulthood: Facing How My Childhood Shaped Me as a Person and a Parent<\/h1>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Sitting back and fully realizing the impact of how childhood trauma affects adulthood can be overwhelming.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

*Trigger warning* the following contains content dealing with a range of <\/i>topics from child abuse to physical and psychological abuse, and neglect.\u00a0<\/i><\/strong><\/p>

I am often struck by my ascension into a semi-normal life as a married mom of two and the sheer normality of not to screaming in my kids’ faces. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>

When I look in the mirror I see a woman who is very much me, but deep down it still feels like I am playing pretend most of the time. I love my life, which isn\u2019t something I could have said 20 years ago as a teenager on the brink of breakdown surrounded by volatility and rage.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

This afternoon I will pick up my kids after school, tell them how much I missed them, make them a snack and ask about their day. When they cry I will tell them it\u2019s okay and I\u2019ll tell them I cry too sometimes. I\u2019ll tell them it\u2019s not their responsibility to fix me if I am sad. When they get noisy I\u2019ll ask them to turn down the volume or I\u2019ll excuse myself for a break. If I yell at them, I\u2019ll apologize. We will troubleshoot together. I\u2019ll let them know I am an imperfect human and let them know it\u2019s okay that they are too.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

This has become a part of how I parent, this is <\/span>breaking the cycle of generational trauma.\u00a0<\/span><\/a><\/p>

This is being a cycle breaker.<\/p>

Tomorrow I have therapy. They think it\u2019s a normal part of life. And it is.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

What is this insanity? How do I get to live this emotionally validating, peaceful life? And how the flip did I get here?<\/span><\/p>

My trauma stems from poverty and emotional abuse and those things are not a part of my life anymore.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

@diaryofanhonestmom<\/a> if this is you, you’re not alone #parenting<\/a> #parentlife<\/a> #generationaltrauma<\/a> #motherhoodunplugged<\/a> #honestmom<\/a> #gentleparenting<\/a> #momlife<\/a> \u266c Repeat Until Death – Novo Amor<\/a><\/section><\/blockquote>